Talking about Udta… takes me to a horrendously dark place. In the months that I was shooting for the film, I had given up my iPhone, something that is fairly difficult for me to do. I had a very basic phone, one without the internet, which I kept to keep in touch with family and close friends.
I wanted to cut myself off, lose myself in that character. There was a conscious attempt to not indulge or entertain myself. It was tormenting and heavy and deeply unsettling to inhabit a world plagued consistently by all sorts of horror. I used to physically dread the walk from my hotel room to the elevator to the lobby every day because it meant going back to that world. I cannot even imagine that as an everyday reality.